Confusion.
My boss just asked if I'd done any work on MYOB since the auditors have been here. I said yes, then he just shook his head in a 'tsk tsk' manner. I was like "No-one told me not to!" and he said "Yes, we did." I reiterated "No, you didn't." He replied "Yes, we did", in a holier-than-thou fashion. He went on to say that I'd probably have to input all of those transactions again, after the auditors come back.Okay, boss. Yes, you have a higher-paying position than I do. Yes, you have had more education. But I'm not stupid. I'd know if someone told me not to use MYOB. And the absolute truth is, NO-ONE TOLD ME. Sheesh.
I've been thinking a lot about trials lately. I've heard heaps of preaching about how, when you go through trials in an area of your life, it's because Satan's attacking that area since he sees it as a threat, and that God's going to turn it around for good and bring you breakthrough (i.e. trials are a good thing, because they come before a breakthrough). I think I believe that too, and it's a good encouragement for those who are going through trials... but, what about those of us that haven't gone through many at all?
One of my friend Rachel's friends just had a baby. Her entire pregnancy, she had chronic morning sickness. She had to go into hospital a few times, and the shots that they gave her didn't even work.
My friend Lexi, who is due around the same time as me, has been sick constantly for her pregnancy, vomiting up to 7 times per day.
Another of Rachel's friends is 6 weeks pregnant. She's had to take the last 2 weeks off of work, because she can't get out of bed.
Me, I've had it so easy. Minimal morning sickness, no complications... in fact, I feel on top of the world. Does this mean that God's not going to use my baby and I? Does it mean that God has great plans for these three women and their babies, and we're just left out? Should I want trials to come along?
About a month ago, I was so sure I was going to have a miscarriage. Never mind the evidence against it - that I was in my second trimester (where chance of miscarriage drops down to 1%), or that I'm in the perfect demographic for a full-term pregnancy: young, healthy, don't drink, don't smoke, etc. So there was basically no chance of me losing this baby. But my reasoning was "I've never had many trials in my life. What if this is it? I know God wants to use me, but so far the path to my destiny has been smooth-sailing. What if it's time for me to have a trial?"
What does it mean when I don't have trials? Does it mean I'm not a 'threat'? Does it mean I'm not close enough to God? That I'm not advancing in His plan for my life?
It really confuses me. I ask again, should I want trials to come along? Should I be praying for trials?
posted by Alyssa @ 11:35 AM
2 Comments:
Perhaps trials have come along, but because you've been doing great, you probably didn't notice...you've had trials Alyssa. You had a trial back ages ago that day on your birthday when You felt hurt by T (before you's both fell in love). You had a trial when T lost his job. You probably even had a trial when your parents divorced. You're having a trial at the moment with stretching your money. You even had a trial when you realized you'd have to work after the birth of your baby and not be a stay at home Mum. All of these are trials...They may be different to others, but they're still trials. God's probably proud of the way you've trusted him...you've already proved to him that you're sold out to him...Perhaps you're just more blessed. Trials will come across your path but God knows that you can handle them.
Luv Kristy
Sometimes it take other people to make you realize what exactly you've conquered
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